Thanksgiving and the day after and the day after that!

So I ended up going to my mom's for Thanksgiving, it was awesome. It was nice to spend time with my family and just veg, have a few days off from work and go Black Friday Shopping. My brothers and me really got to bond and it was really nice. I was able to open up more about John and I think my family is truly happy for me. I know that I am truly happy, now the "L" word has been dropped yet, but he said something so beautiful to me today that I almost started crying.

See John went through a really tough divorce, all I have to say is that his wife really screwed him over big time. And he was talking about how is life is finally on track and he has things in his life that make him happy, and then he looked at me and said you are one of the things that makes me very happy I am glad that I met you. It is really nice to hear that from him. On Thanksgiving I sent him a text that said, Happy Thanksgiving, I am so thankful for having you in my life. And he sent one back saying "Yes I am happy we are together too" I am just so damn stuck to him it's not even funny.

But anyways I am posting some pictures from this week and this weekend. Enjoy!
The whole family from Left Phil, Steve, Sean, Kelly, Me, and Sophia

Phil and The Lego Man that Yay-Yay (My dad) made for Sophia and Sophia
Steve and Me, brotherly and sisterly love lol

Me and Sean, don't we look so happy
My Baby John and Me, see how happy we are??

An Epiphany

So I was sitting at home today before seeing Twilight, laying back on my bed and thinking. Thinking about everything that has happened over the past couple of months. I mean February I told Michael that it was over, and that took a long time to get over. And then a beautiful thing happened in July, I think I might have met the "one". Now I know I know Jessica don't get ahead of yourself but let me explain, ok?

When I decided to divorce Michael it was one of the worst times of my life, I felt that I had finally really let myself down. The one thing that I had always promised myself is that no matter what I was never going to get divorced and I was going to work through it. Well it was way to hard for me, and I really felt like a quitter at the time. But since it began I got over it. I was really apprehensive about trying to date someone else because I didn't want to get hurt, and it was like walking on a bed of nails, one wrong move and a rusty nail is in your foot. It took a lot of guts for me to go online and post a profile, I figured what the heck let me at least see what is out there. And after being through one marriage I knew what I wanted out of my life and knew what I wanted that special someone to be also. So I went ahead and posted that profile.

I wasn't exactly sure how I was going to feel trying to date someone else, all of my woes were still running through my mind. I was scared about anybody finding out, so I started to receive e-mails on a daily basis. And I received a message one day, it was very casual asking me how I was, asking me about myself and nothing more. I felt really comfortable with it, none of this your so beautiful blah blah blah crap. So I started conversing with this man back and forth for awhile. Even when i didn't answer for a week he kept on top of me and little did i know that I would end up meeting him once and never stop seeing him.

We have been dating since July, we have been dating almost 5 months and I know that might seem not so long, but this is the first relationship that I haven't fought with him we seem to enjoy each others time together after we are together and part we miss each others company. And lately I haven't been texting him like I used to, like when i would come home from his place. Lately he's been texting me telling me he misses me and when we were together it was just absoultely amazing, the point I am trying to make is that I think we are both falling in love with each other.

He won't let me pay for anything, when we are together on the weekends we don't want to leave each others side. We don't want to be without each other it is a beautiful feeling having someone feel the same way for you as you do for them with no bullshit attached. And that's what I figured out today sitting on my bed, with all the feelings that I am having that I was in love with him, I am truly in love with him and not puppy love true love. God it's so scary, but it feels so great to just let it out and say it, well to guys not him. That's going to be on him to tell me that he loves me first, lol. I did slip at the end of one of my texts last night saying have a goodnight baby Love ya Jess...oops!

Well I think that's all for now, by the way Twilight was awesome. I think I'm in puppy love with Rob Pattinson from Twlight...he was so Edward it isn't even funny.



is he not hottness? Oh my god the way he acts and damn..I just can't even speak lol!

So Happy!

So I talked to my cousin Amy on my instant messenger for a little while this past week and was asking her about men. It's such a broad subject and everyone is different and no way alike. I had been some reservations about him actually having feelings for me and knowing where it was going.

But I have been taking it one step at a time. Today we went out during the day, he took me to where is works (he owns his own nursery) and showed me around, now that alone kind of was like, wow he's letting me in. I know it might sound stupid, but he is very excited about his business and I am happy for him that he is excited about it. I also got to meet his best friend, which was an adventure in itself, so it's like everything is starting to happen.

He seems to be very in tune to my feelings and is starting to share them more, which makes me melt in his hand. When we were in a couple of stores today looking, he just without hesitation put his arms around me and was kissing me neck, it was so sweet. I don't know what the change in attitude was but boy am I happy :) Right before we went home I went to starbucks to get some java, I am watching Brandon (Melissa's son) right now and I need all the energy I can get right now. Well I went to pull my wallet out and pay and he was like no baby I got it. I told him i would pay for it, but he doesn't let me pay for anything, yeesh! I know why the hell is Jessica complaining, because in all my other relationships it seems that I was paying for everything and doing everything, but this one is like wow.

So all in all I have had a happy day and I am glad that I was able to see him. Oh and I received a message when I got home saying that he had a good time and that his best friend likes me and he was glad we got to see each other today and he closed it with xoxoxoxoxo. 5 months later and we are making a dent, I finally am starting to understand. As long as I let him take is time telling me it's that much better!

Well toodles for now, going to watch Brandon and get ready to go see Twilight, I CAN"T WAIT YIPEE!!!

So Life is Getting Better

So I haven't written since Obama was elected, everything has been going really good. So some new things have been going on in the home front. Well one isn't that new, 2 months after I filed for divorce against Michael I started kind of/sort of seeing someone. Now this began in July and actually we have been seeing each other ever since. I haven't said anything because I haven't wanted to jinx the relationship at all, but now I am going to be open about it. He is 14 years older than me, which doesn't bother me at all, to me age is just a number after you are a certain age.

But anyways, it has been going good again like i have said we have been seeing each other since July. I am not completely sure what is going on in that mind of his, but isn't that always the way it is? I have learned to not push it and see where it goes, I do have to say he treats me like I have never been treated before. I feel like a princess when I am with him, and like my cousin Amy I actually met him on a dating site, we took it slow first talking on the Internet and then meeting for coffee and it seemed that we just really got a long. I sometimes wonder if it is too good to be true, but I don't want to jinx myself and start thinking negatively because that always screws you. But my only question is this, how do you know when he really digs you and has feelings for you? I mean he has to like me if we keep seeing each other and it seems that it is becoming more and more every week, it was just on the weekends because that was the best, but now it seems that it is becoming more and more. And how do you stop yourself from falling?? I don't want to get hurt, but he is so great. And just a checklist (I asked him this on our first date) no police/jail record, no drug addictions (thank god), owns his own business (it's stable I don't have to worry about supporting him lol), and is very self sufficient. So what is there not to love, lol?

But I need everybodys help, let me tell you something he did a couple of weeks ago that had me almost in tears (not a bad thing). What happened was about my custody case with Sophia's father, he asked for a continuance because he doesn't want to pay child support, well the same day I was supposed to go for the custody, my boyfriend went for his divorce (yes he was previously married, it's alright because so was I) he got his divorce and I didn't even get to go to my court date because people want to act like wankers. Well that weekend I went up to his apartment, and earlier that day he had sent me a text and said I have a surprise for you...I was kind of worried but excited. So when I got the apartment he brought me in and had me sit down. He handed me a brown paper bag and said "Baby I know you've had a bad week and I felt really bad so I wanted to get you something to make you feel better" (I know awwwh). So anyways he got my Calvin Klein perfume. I was so happy, I mean nobody has ever done that for me, cared about my feelings and went and bought me something to make me feel better. I just felt so special and then when we went out that night we talked about our relationship something we had never done before. We had both agreed that we were glad that we had met each other and we were happy.

But anyways, that's about it..I'm attaching a picture so everybody can see...

Oh How The World Has Changed

So it's 2 days since the national Election. Can you believe it?? I still cannot believe it Mr. Barack Obama is now President-elect Barack Obama. I was glued to my phone at the bowling alley Tuesday night, being the national announcer jumping up and down screaming yes yes yes he got Connecticut! OH MY GOD HE GOT PENNSYLVANIA!! It was truly exciting, and it's not because of the color of his skin. Barack exuded intelligence and the man is a great public speaker, watching him deliver his victory speech Tuesday Night/Wednesday Morning brought tears to my eyes. He speaks like he's talking directly to you and you can truly understand what he is saying and where he is coming from.

I am very proud to admitt that I voted for him, and I cannot wait until his term in office begins. The mood of my friends and people in general has changed, the air has seemed to get lighter and people seem to happier. The moment I saw one of my really good friends Aiyana, all we started singing was "OBAMA, OBAMA, OBAMA." The whole day we kept going back and forth about things he said in his victory speech and how much we cannot wait for the change in America. I can tell you that it has really made everybody think that very quote he kept repeating "Yes We Can" is actually truly. We can all accomplish anything we put our mind to and Barack has showed us that, he is truly an inspiration to many and I am proud to say Congratulations President Obama!!!


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amy had him as a movie hero, I have him as Obama Man!!