When I decided to divorce Michael it was one of the worst times of my life, I felt that I had finally really let myself down. The one thing that I had always promised myself is that no matter what I was never going to get divorced and I was going to work through it. Well it was way to hard for me, and I really felt like a quitter at the time. But since it began I got over it. I was really apprehensive about trying to date someone else because I didn't want to get hurt, and it was like walking on a bed of nails, one wrong move and a rusty nail is in your foot. It took a lot of guts for me to go online and post a profile, I figured what the heck let me at least see what is out there. And after being through one marriage I knew what I wanted out of my life and knew what I wanted that special someone to be also. So I went ahead and posted that profile.
I wasn't exactly sure how I was going to feel trying to date someone else, all of my woes were still running through my mind. I was scared about anybody finding out, so I started to receive e-mails on a daily basis. And I received a message one day, it was very casual asking me how I was, asking me about myself and nothing more. I felt really comfortable with it, none of this your so beautiful blah blah blah crap. So I started conversing with this man back and forth for awhile. Even when i didn't answer for a week he kept on top of me and little did i know that I would end up meeting him once and never stop seeing him.
We have been dating since July, we have been dating almost 5 months and I know that might seem not so long, but this is the first relationship that I haven't fought with him we seem to enjoy each others time together after we are together and part we miss each others company. And lately I haven't been texting him like I used to, like when i would come home from his place. Lately he's been texting me telling me he misses me and when we were together it was just absoultely amazing, the point I am trying to make is that I think we are both falling in love with each other.
He won't let me pay for anything, when we are together on the weekends we don't want to leave each others side. We don't want to be without each other it is a beautiful feeling having someone feel the same way for you as you do for them with no bullshit attached. And that's what I figured out today sitting on my bed, with all the feelings that I am having that I was in love with him, I am truly in love with him and not puppy love true love. God it's so scary, but it feels so great to just let it out and say it, well to guys not him. That's going to be on him to tell me that he loves me first, lol. I did slip at the end of one of my texts last night saying have a goodnight baby Love ya Jess...oops!
Well I think that's all for now, by the way Twilight was awesome. I think I'm in puppy love with Rob Pattinson from Twlight...he was so Edward it isn't even funny.
is he not hottness? Oh my god the way he acts and damn..I just can't even speak lol!
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