So first and foremost, Larry and Melissa's wedding went off without a hitch. I was sooo happy that Melissa included me in helping her with stuff for the wedding. So all the girls were together on Friday night, it was my Mom, Grandma, Kellie, Christine, Melissa, Andy, Sean, Sophia and myself. We had a blast I bought some alcohol for the festivities since it was Melissa last night of bachelorettism, it was awesome. I made her malibu, cranberry, and orange juice drinks (Kellie tried some of it, but we have all come to the conclusion that she is just not a drinker she's tried every drink I have she will NEVER be a wine drinker lol). And I also bought Champagne for my Mom and me (we haven't had a drink together ever so I got to drink with her, kinda spiked hers a little (I swear I didn't mean it lol)) and we had mimosas yummo!! (A little Rachael Ray for all of you R.Ray lovers out there) And we talked and had a lot of fun. I got to hang out with my brother Sean a lot and I was so happy about that. I love him to death even if he is a royal pain in my arse he's my brother. It was a great night. So then the next day which was the big day I took Melissa to get a manicure while I got a Aromatherapy Pedicure, I sure needed that it was nice to get pampered, the two Mommies of 2 young children we really deserved it lol. And then I went to the Yacht Club where they were getting married to drop off stuff and then we came home to get ready. I was really excited because Melissa let me do her makeup and hair (can you believe it???) she looked beautiful and the curls stayed in for a long time. I also did Sophia's hair, in little rows with Butterfly clips, she looked so beautiful and even had a wardrobe change after the ceremony she was the stylish Flower Girl lol. Now do you really think Grandma Betty and Mommy didn't want her to look absoultely adorable??? And then after all of that I had to rush to get ready lol...They were yelling at me to get ready because I was taking to long...I was like Listen Peoples I just did the brides and flower girls hair cut me some slack lol... But we got to the Yacht Club on time and they had a beautiful ceremony outside and then a really fun reception inside. All in all the day went well.
Sophia's Hair
Brandon and Sophia
The Happy Couple :) Melissa and Larry
So now that the wedding is over, everything has gone back to normal. I am bowling Wednesday nights with Melissa, Andy and Kellie. We have an awesome time because it is family, now if I could just get back into the groove I'd be doing good :)
Besides that on the homefront everything is still going good between John and Me. We are going to be celebrating our 1 year anniversary next week. It's amazing where the time goes, it has been amazing so far. I mean we meet, fall in love, go to Mexico and are still together :) He has been there for me through out it all. Especially with the divorce with my ex-husband and the case going on with that. He is truly my rock, and I can cry on his shoulder and he just rubs my back while he holds me and says "it's going to be alright Baby I am here for you, I'm not going anywhere." He makes me feel so special, and we are starting to plan our next vacation I'm very excited :) We are going to go to Las Vegas, it should be awesome. We have been talking about how we met the last 2 weeks and how we felt when we first met. It was so nice to hear the things he told me and it made me feel so special to be a part of his life. John is truly amazing people the most amazing man alive and he is all mine :) I don't think I have ever loved a man as much as I love him and it is true love real true love it takes me breath away just thinking about it...sigh... I truly feel in my mind and heart he is the one and I have told him this, that I believe that he is my soulmate. I am just so in love with this man, I don't think I'd ever be able to describe in words.
Besides that my emotional state is excellent. The doctor says I'm doing wonderful :) I crossed a lot of unwalked paths the last couple of months. Anger that I needed to get out, I didn't know how much I had rooted up inside of me. My friend Jodie is one of the number one people besides my Mom and John that has helped me through all of this. Jodie has been down the same road as me and it is very nice to have a support system there. I didn't realize how uplifiting it would be to get out what had been going on in my body for so long. I mean one of the biggest things was my biological fathers death and all the crap that went along with it. For so long I had to live in the "image" of my father and it a way it really wrecked me. I finally understand that I am Jessica, and not Vincent and I have done far more in my life in the past 2 years than he had done all the time that he was alive. I mean I miss him and still love him dearly, but there is a time in life that you need to move on with life and this was one of the major things. He's dead, end of story, end of discussion. There is no reason to rehash things that can't change, it's been 21 years he isn't going to come walking down the street one day saying "Hey Jessica I missed you." There is no reason to live with that hope when you know it won't happen. I am in the now and present. I have a wonderful father Bill that took me in as his own when I was 7 years old. He loved me as his own, you can't say that for a lot of people out there. But he treated me like I was his flesh and blood and now according to public records in Connecticut he is my father. I pushed for that after my parents got married. I wanted to be a Tyler too. I thank god every day that my Mom met him and married him.
There were other issues too of people in my family trying to get me introuble for stupid things. I just don't understand how grown adults could be so petty. Listen I tell my mother and grandmother and immediate family everything. We are very close, no matter what reaction it is I tell them everything that is going on in my life. That is just how it is, I would rather them know upfront then have to find out a different way. I am a strong independent single mother, and I have worked my ass off to get where I am today. It took a lot of blood sweat and tears, but you know what people, I'm making it. I tell myself everyday, "What doesn't kill you, makes you stronger". I have been through a terrifying rollercoaster the past 6 years of my life, and I can finally sit at the top of the hill and say "I made it". And yes I had some help but I'm not ashamed to admit it or thank those people who helped make my evolution possible. My grandmother and mother are a big part of that, they are truly amazing women and they have given me such great advice about life that has made me who I am today. I love them both very very very much. I am a WOMAN, not 10 years old anymore. There is a point in life where you have to grow up and worry about yourself and that is me now.
Besides that nothing is really going on. I am taking Sophia and Grandma down to Pennsylvania on Saturday with Andy, I am excited to see my family. It is always nice :) And then my birthday is in a couple of weeks too, not that I am looking forward to 27, that's 3 years to 30 aaaahhh! Well I will sign off for now....Feel free to leave comments I love getting them :)
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Jess, you have been through so much... you SHOULD be proud of yourself and all you've accomplished! Many people go their whole lives without learning these life lessons. You have done a lot of hard work, and you deserve every happiness. Go, you!!!
Much love,
Cousin Amy
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