It's Been A Long Time

So I haven't been able to write in about a month because my computers hard drive decided to shit the bed at a very bad time, I lost all of Sophia's infant pictures and other really nice pictures. So I have to rebuild my collection from what other people have. Besides that everything is going really well. Christmas went very well, Sophia had a blast. I ended up having her for both Christmas Eve and Christmas Day, which was big since Nelson usually has her on those days. We had a lot of fun together.

John and I are still together and going stronger than ever. He really makes me so happy and I do know from what he tells me that I make him happy in return. My cousin Amy had told me that if a guy is really into you he will tell you how he is feeling. Well thank god, he tells me how he is feeling all the time. Last Wednesday he swept me off of my feet, we were in my room just talking I had my head on his chest and he took my face into his hands and said "You are so beautiful" 2 times. I have never had anybody say it the way he did and mean it. And then he kept going, ah "My baby", that just makes me feel so good. And more exciting news were are planning our trip to Mexico for the end of February, I am so excited 5 days alone with my love it should be really fun. I am just really glad that I told a flying leap into mystery and went and met him that night in June, because it has all paid off in the end. He is such a handsome man, and so hard working. I brag about him all the time how I've never met anybody so excited about their work, he is so excited and it's so cool to listen to him. He owns a nursery in NY state, and it's just amazing, I can't even put it into work you all might think that I'm a dork because I think what my boyfriend does is interesting but I really do find it interesting. There is just something about this man that has had me hooked since day one and I'm telling you I don't want to let go besides Sophia he is my everything.

Besides that nothing really going on, work is going really good. Oh one big piece of news I quit smoking, now it's been about a week now, and the only way I was able to do it was that my primary care doctor had to put me on an antidepressant (I actually needed it for my mood swings besides the smoking cessation), but it worked about a 4 days after I started taking the medicine (the first day was horrible I felt like I was on a boat the whole day). I have noticed that I am a lot calmer now and don't get agitated that easily. The only thing that scares me is that I can't even get an ounce of mad, I want to feel the anger, I mean I get angry but not like it used to be it annoys me lol. But I think that is about it..I know it's been awhile so I wanted to update everybody!!