A lot of changes and wows!

So I haven't been on in about a week or so, a lot of things have been happening. First off I had a migraine for a total 0f 5 days, yeah 5 days. Just thinking about it is making my head hurt. I went to the doctor who told me I had a sinus infection and that was what was causing the migraines so he gave me good medicine. So I went to work Wednesday and the migraine was still there, I figured I would give in another day so that the medicine would work. Well Thursday came and no change and it got worse. So I had to go to the ER, what a lovely trip that was. They ended up giving me stuff with Narcotics in it that literally knocked me on my ass. I am happy to say that the migraine is gone and all that is left is the soreness of it. Like my neck and my eyes (the muscles keep twitching every once in awhile.)

But besides that on to bigger news. Everybody knows how much trouble I was having with my ex-husband Michael and I had to go the police to have charges put against him. Well this was last September right after the divorce. Well the Town Of Darien has had an arrest warrant out on him since. And low and behold he went and got himself into trouble last Wednesday causing his own arrest. Well know he is incarcerated, yet again, and now they will finally be able to serve him with the arrest warrant for my stuff. When I found out, I had kind of mixed emotions, you know in a way you feel bad that you are causing all of this, but then I thought "Jessica snap the heck out of it, look what he did to you for all of those months...duh!!"

But anyways just thought i'd give you an update. I will know more next Wed. when he is "officially" served at his trial for his other charge.

Down Down Down

So as much as my life is going great and I have a wonderful boyfriend and child it is hard sometimes to stay out of my depression. This Monday until now I have been in a foul mood. Even though there is nothing to be upset about I think it's just the inner workings of Jessica.

Work is very busy which keeps my mind off of things, but once I go on my breaks I sit and cry for no apparent reason. I look at pictures of John and me and cry. I just cannot stop crying when I'm alone, I don't know why either. It is kind of scaring me and I don't know why. It's not like I'm pregnant or anything because that would be a miracle within itself since John and I can't have kids. And I'm so over my divorce it's not even funny. I'm just starting to get agitated with myself why I am so down in the dumps.

I have been waking up the last couple of mornings so nauseated it isn't even funny. So bad that I have to sit down for a second before getting ready for work. I don't know why I am feeling so sick to my stomach. I just wish that I could find out the reason why I am acting like this so that I can get myself out of this funk.

Any suggestions?

Just Checking In

So it's been awhile since I've written, about a week now. Just trying to get back into the daily grind. I went and picked Sophia up on Saturday along with my Grandmother. I am still feeling Mexico in my head, what a beautiful place. It brought John and me so close together.

We miss each other so much after being together for that whole entire week, god I just can't thank him enough for taking me there. It by far was one of the greatest vacations I have ever had. I love him so much it isn't even funny and the greatest thing is that he loves me back. I never thought I'd hear it but it happened, I finally just came right out and said it and he said it back, what a relief lol.

I am so happy right now with my life, and with Sophia and with him. I love John in a way that I have never loved anybody before and I think that is mainly because I have never had anybody treat me the way that John treats me. It is absolutely amazing how great he is. Sophia just adores him and she got to see him tonight and was so excited, I have never seen her like that before with anybody else. My life is finally on it's way up instead of down and I cannot be more happy about it. I thank my lucky stars every day that I have him as a boyfriend, and maybe one day it will be something more. But for right now I am happy the way that it is, I am very content very very content.

Well that's all for now.

I'm Home!

Sooo...Mexico was absolutely the most awesome vacation I've ever been on!!! We stayed in Playa Del Carmen at the Riu Yucatan for 5 nights 6 days. It was absolutely the most amazing vacation. I got to spend some much needed alone time with my honey. And let me tell you it was so romantic, Mexico is by far one of the most romantic places. Just laying with my honey at the beach and soaking up some rays.

We were together day and night and neither one of us seemed to mind at all. Never fought once, it's like we just get along so freaking well. We spent the first 3 days just tooling around Playa, spent some time at the beach, walked around the town and went swimming. On Thursday we caught a boat to Cozumel which was absolutely beautiful. John rented a Moped (I was scared shitless), and we drove around the island. It isn't that big so it doesn't take that long to get around. We toured a Tequila factory and learned about the making of Tequila and then taste tested some of them. We also ate a waterfront resturant and I had the best Ceviche ever created. We left about 8:30 that night and spent the rest of the night drinking and being in love.

On Friday we went on an excursion to the Tulum Ruins and to a live day Mayan Village. It was by far the most interesting thing I had ever done. We had so much fun snorkeling in the cenotes and ziplining. And on Saturday we had to come home as much as I didn't want to. Being with John is absolutely amazing, he is one of the most loving individuals alive. I cannot thank him enough for coming into my life and making me his girlfriend I am truly the most happiest girl on the planet. Here are some of the pictures from our trip!